对于阿尔茨海默症患者来说,他们的记忆正在被一丝一丝剥离自己的身体,他们的整个人生都在渐渐离他们远去,直到他们对整个世界的记忆变成一片空白……
但,总有一些事,历经时间的冲洗,历经病痛的折磨,依旧铭刻在他们的心底。
在一段采访阿尔茨海默症患者的视频中,主持人提出了许多有关记忆的问题:你最早一段的记忆是什么?最痛苦的记忆是什么?他们或是完全回想不起来,或是断断续续地讲述着自己的过去,他们的答案简单质朴,却又真诚感人。
What's one of your first memories?
你最早的一段记忆是什么?
I must have been four years old.
Well, it was steamy hot in Costa Rica.
There was a stream, and I wanted to get in the stream.
我当时应该有四岁。
当时我在哥斯达黎加,特别热。
有一条小溪,我想跳进小溪里。
I remember...uh...
It was pouring.
Pouring rain.
I was really excited about the puddles.
我记得......呃......
在下雨,
瓢泼大雨。
我看到水坑特别激动。
Oh yeah, I was two or three at least.
It was a beautiful day. I remember the sun.
我当时可能两三岁吧。
那天天气很好。我还记得那天的阳光。
I just wanted to take off.
I just wanted to go see the world.
I made it about half a block.
That was my world at that time.
我就是想离开家,
去看看这个世界。
我可能跑出了半条街那么远吧,
我当时的世界就那么大。
童年的记忆总是美好的——在阳光下尽情奔跑,在大雨中肆意踩水,在炎热的天气里跳到小河里去。即使他们已经记不清到底发生了什么,但这种美好的感觉却是可以被记住的。
What's one of your last memory?
你最后一段记忆是什么?
Okay, I can't think of one right now.
Um, it's an Alzheimer's moment.
我现在一件事也想不起来。
因为我有阿尔茨海默症。
This morning I, um, went off to, um...
No, where did I go, where did I go this morning?
What did I do this morning before we met?
I don't remember.
今早我,呃,我去了,呃......
我去哪儿了今早?
我在采访前都干了什么?
我想不起来了。
这是他们的常态,仅仅是刚刚做过的事情,也会一下子失去记忆。
他们有时会想起很久以前的事,却很难记住自己刚刚去过哪里、做过什么。
What's one of your saddest memories?
你最悲伤的记忆是什么?
Probably losing my parents.
应该是父母过世的时候。
That was tough for me to get over.
I love my dad.
A sad memory was sitting by his bedside, holding his hand when he died.
我很难走出那段难过的记忆。
我很爱我的父亲。
那段难过的记忆就是,我坐在他的床边拉着他的手,然后他就走了。
It's my oldest daughter.
She called me on a Sunday.
I told her I would call her the next day, Monday.
And I didn't.
She had taken her life.
那是我的大女儿。
有一个周日她打电话给我,
我告诉她等周一我再打回去给她。
后来我没打。
她结束了自己的生命。
失去至亲之人,终究是每个人都无法忘记的痛苦,即使是他们,也一样不会忘却那种无尽的悲伤。
Describe your first kiss.
描述一下你的初吻。
With my husband or somebody else?
和我老公,还是和别人啊?
这位阿姨即使忘记了很多事,也没忘记搞笑逗趣哦!
I snuck a kiss from a girl and she slapped me.
我亲了一个女孩,她给了我一巴掌。
到了这个年纪再想起这种年少时的窘事,不知是怎样的一种感觉呢?
Oh, that was a bad date.
哦,那次约会简直不堪回首。
I remember she said, "I can't see you."
And I remember saying, "Just close your eyes."
我记得她说:“我看不见你。”
然后我说:“闭上眼睛。”
浪漫的情场高手原来在这里!
年少时朦胧却又纯粹的爱情也是深深扎根于我们的内心。很多年后,即便我们忘记了自己一生中的大部分事情,这样美好的感情、这种悸动的感觉也仍旧会留在我们心底。
What's something you never wanna forget?
有什么是你永远也不想忘记的?
I don't want to forget my children.
Yeah, my children.
我不想忘记我的孩子们。
是的,孩子们。
I hope to never forget their names, their faces.
我希望永远不要忘记他们(孩子)的名字,他们的脸。
My husband.
我老公。
Our marriage.
My wife and I.
I don't want ever forget that.
We looked at each other's eyes,
and I'll hold onto it as long as I can.
我和妻子的婚姻,
我永远都不想忘记。
我们凝视着对方的眼睛,
只要我还能有记忆,就绝对不会忘。
看到这些或是幸福、或是甜蜜、或是悲伤的人生回忆,看到他们努力回想着过去、努力珍藏着回忆的样子,大家是不是也红了眼眶?
如果有一天,我们的记忆也在慢慢消退,我们最放不下的,我们最难忘却的,又会是什么呢?
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